JustJenn

Somethings like wrong with me. I have the worst anger problems lately and it's bugging the hell out of me! I keep crying about everything too. I'm not even on or about to be on my period. I feel like I need anger management or something. I keep embarassing myself. I keep apologizing to Alex for being an idiot and I'm worried one time when I apologize he's not going to want to forgive me anymore. I'm trying so hard, but I guess not hard enough. I'm so scared to go back to school, I hate it so much. It's so hard and it' so stressful. I wish I was on break this coming week too because Alex is. Today's going to be really boring. I was supposed to be going to a birthday party with Alex's family, but his cousin is sick so they canceled it. Now, in order for Alex to be able to eat over tomorrow he has to eat at home today. That sucks because now I'll do nothing all day and it's Saturday! I want to actually do something. The bad part is that I want to do something with Alex not any of my friends. My friends never call me anyways they always say they want to hangout and then never call. I don't want it to always be up to me to plan when we're hanging out because then I feel like they don't even want to hangout. Maybe if I go take a shower I'll feel better. I'm gonna go try that,