Ugh.

I feel so bad I keep being mean to Alex lately. I don't know why but I'm just letting everything bother me. I get mad at him even when it's about things that aren't even his fault. When I wake up I tell myself this is going to be a good day and then I let something stupid ruin my day. Like yesterday I got mad at Alex because he said we couldn't hangout the entire day today because he had to go to the gym and I friggin got mad! Like why? That's so stupid who cares! But yeah I got mad and it pisses me off when he tries to turn it all around and blame it on himself when I know that it's 100% my fault! Just like ten minutes ago when he called me I got mad at him because yesterday I asked him if he wanted to go out to lunch and he said no we'll go tomorrow so I was like fine I got mad about that because I'm stupid. And then now today he says he doesn't want to go out to eat anymore because he doesn't feel like driving yet he'll go drive to the gym and wherever else with Spencer. It's stupid for me to get mad, but I can't help it. I'm trying but i'm not doing very well. Well I'm gonna go get ready even though I have to wait like two more hours to hangout with Alex so I don't know what the rush is.